Many months ago I found a few websites that saddened me as a novice photographer. They were websites that made fun of “stay at home moms that had brand new dSLRs and suddenly became expert photographers”.
Were they talking about me? I know they weren’t, but it just hurt. The things that people were saying were just mean. I’m just amazed at how critical people can be of others. I had very successfully, until this moment, surrounded myself with a world of kind, positive influences and I had no idea these views existed.
Unfortunately, I let this impact me too much. I really started questioning why people would want to see my pictures of this and that. Why is my view of the world important, special, different? I put my cameras away and only took them out now and then.
Almost 2 weeks ago the Universe intervened. I won a spot for myself and a friend in Darrah Parker’s Slice of Life Project. I was so excited, but very hesitant. However after 2 weeks, I’m realizing this might be exactly what I needed. Gentle reminders that my life, point of view, what I find important is special because it’s mine. No one else in the world sees what I see the way I see it, unless I take that picture.
I’m not cured. I’m still on guard. But I’m getting there.
I know that my view is special because it is mine.
I know that not everyone will love my pictures as much as I do.
I know there are mean people out there.
I know that I’m fragile, but will build myself back stronger.
And with that I leave you with this image. It represents a fear that I have had for quite a while….
…taking pictures in the grocery store. Scary, I know, but I did it. See, I’m getting stronger already!